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“Every client experiences therapy differently. The thoughts shared below are based on one person’s personal experience and should not be taken as representative of every client’s journey”<\/em>

The following article is based on a conversation with someone who has experienced therapy as a client through SafeTalk and has kindly given permission for their perspective to be shared anonymously. The thoughts and experiences have been paraphrased for clarity, while keeping the original thoughts intact.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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As therapists, you see the client once they’ve booked an appointment. But from the client’s side, that journey usually starts much earlier.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

For me, there was almost a two month gap between thinking, “I should probably go to therapy,” and actually booking my first session.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I kept coming back.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I would visit therapist’s profile, read about what they specialised in, compare their pricing, look through their social media and try to get a sense of who they were. Then I’d close the tab.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A few days later, I’d do it again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Looking back now, I realised I wasn’t searching for the “perfect therapist”. I was slowly convincing myself that I was ready to take that first step.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

I Checked the Therapist Page More Than Once<\/h2>\n\n\n\n
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One thing I kept doing was checking availability.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not because I was ready to book.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Just because I wanted to know what my options were.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don’t think I realised it at the time, but messaging a therapist felt like making a commitment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

If I sent a message asking, “Do you have any availability next week?”, there was now another person involved. They would reply, I’d feel obliged to respond, and if I suddenly wasn’t ready anymore, I’d feel awkward disappearing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That small interaction felt much bigger in my head than it probably was.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Being able to quietly open a booking page, see available dates, close it, and come back tomorrow without anyone knowing felt surprisingly comforting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eventually, one of those dates became “the one”, and I booked it.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

The First Session Was Already Scary Enough<\/h2>\n\n\n\n
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Once I’d booked, I wasn’t really thinking about therapy itself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was thinking about everything else.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Where exactly do I park?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Should I arrive early?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Which floor is the clinic on?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I wait outside or go in?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What if I’m late?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What happens during the first session?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

These might seem like small questions, but when you’re already nervous about attending therapy, every unknown feels a little bigger.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Having all of those details explained beforehand removes a lot of unnecessary anxiety.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Cancelling Felt Harder Than I Expected<\/h2>\n\n\n\n
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This was probably the part that surprised me the most.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’ve always viewed therapists a little like teachers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Someone I respect.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Someone whose time I don’t want to waste.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Once I’d booked a session, I genuinely wanted to attend it, even if something else came up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But life happens.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sometimes you need to reschedule.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sometimes you need to cancel.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Even though therapy is meant to be a safe space where you can openly talk about anything, I still felt a small sense of guilt about cancelling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not because my therapist made me feel guilty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Just because that’s how I personally felt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Looking back, I realised that the easiest way to remove that feeling wasn’t reassurance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It was simplicity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

If I could reschedule or cancel through a booking system in a few clicks, knowing both my therapist and I would be notified automatically, it removed that emotional hurdle almost completely.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It didn’t feel like I was letting someone down, but instead simply felt like managing my appointment.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Final Thoughts By Shavkat<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

Therapists spend years learning how to create a safe space inside the therapy room. But I think that safe space starts much earlier than that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n